或許有快樂。

This is life.

Almost every speaker said it to encourage everyone.
It won't be always good. Life is up and down
Even last year is a difficult year, but all of you did your best and had a good performance.

But for me, this sentence made me more depressed.
I sent a SMS to Sasa in HK because I did need someone to comfort me or just listen to me.

What happened?
It's a good question. I want to know what happened as well.
I don't think "This is life" is a good answer for me.

Now it seems I can't control my emotion well.

What happened?
I thought I can take care of eveything well or I care something less, and I'm confident enough to overcome any challenge.
But now, I have to say, I can't. I'm not God.
I'm forced to face every problems I've ignored intentionaly for such a long time...

2008 will be a painful but harvest year if I can deal with my problems well.
 

However, currently, I'm so sad, so depressed. 
Dislike here, dislike who I am and  what I face now.
Just wanna hide myself and be alone.
Find a place no one can find me........................